Day 3 in the beautiful city of Washington D.C. and honestly, it has not been easy. But what new transition ever is? Unless you’re a transition wizard I guess. Change takes time and grace.
The one thing I have to keep reminding myself of is that I am a beginner. I am not going to be doing things as quickly as everyone else and I certainly will not be living up to my own expectations! I have a tendency of setting really high expectations for myself and when I don’t possess the ability to fulfill those expectations, I become frustrated and depressed until I am heading quickly down the road of insecurity and doubt.
If you think about it, the lack of grace we give ourselves, is probably the number one thing that either prevents us from making the leap or excelling once we have made it. In our fast paced world, there is no room for failure. No room for growth. No room for living the life that God has called us to live. We come to a crossroads where we can either live a fear-filled life or a grace-filled life.
I have lived that fear-filled life and all it gave me was false feeling of security. Maybe as you’re thinking about making a life transistion, you are also dealing with fear or anxiety. But what if God is calling you out of that? You can only know if you give yourself grace just as Jesus did. If Jesus can love you despite your flaws, indecisions, fears, quirks, etc. then why can’t you do the same?
So how do we live out a grace-filled life?
I was reading in Jeremiah this morning and I came across these verses where God is speaking to Jeremiah. “The word of the Lord came to me, saying, ‘Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” (1:5) Jeremiah’s response is similar to my own. “Ah, Sovereign Lord,’ I said, ‘I do not know how to speak; I am only a child.” (V. 6) We make excuses. We try to rationalize with God, telling ourselves that there is no way this could be right, that we are the right person for the job, etc. But then God’s response to Jeremiah is the same response He would have towards us: “But the Lord said to me, ‘Do not say, I am only a child.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,’ declares the Lord.” (V. 7-8) God is calling Jeremiah out of his insecurities just as He is also calling us away from our insecurities to fully depend on Him.
Continue to dive deeper into what the Bible has to say about grace. Search “grace” in the concordance at the back of your Bible. I think that we are better able to give grace back to others when we understand it and experience it for ourselves.
Lastly, we have to keep in mind that this new adventure is not about us. If the new adventure that you are embarking on truly is from God, then He will equip you, grow you, change you, provide for you and help you as you take each step. So chin up, God’s got this!